My Christmas letter (Christmas Magic)

  I Love magic and fantasy!
I  always  have, I love mythical tales of of magical forest creatures and fairies and elves, of very wise talking animals and always "they lived happily ever after".   I love all the fantasy and wonder of outer space, Star Trek and the Star War's stories of the force and of course good always  conquering evil.
My family even has a way of rating movies, "this is a Renee movie", meaning it has a happy ending or "definitely Not a Renee movie", if things don't go so good.
This past year my life seemed like a real life HallMark movie, our "situation" was Crystal and her surprise pregnancy, the "dilemma" came when we found out Olivia had HLHS, our "journey" took us to medical specialists, a special hospital, to the NICU and Ronald McDonald House but then the "ending" came, we didn't get the Renee ending.  We didn't conquer her broken heart, we didn't triumph and I was shocked and devastated by her loss.
It has been a little over four months now and I confess my recovery is going slow, I've searched for the answers in all different places, some places so silly I've laughed (people really believe this junk?) and some places I do not wish to revisit ever again,  but all the places I've been looking have not held the answers I need so I've pulled the covers up over my head, (life sucks) I just can't process this reality.  Do very bad things really happen to good people?
Today a friend of mine shared the above link to the song "O Holy Night".  I listened and I cried, then I listened again, and I cried again and then I realized, Our Story Hasn't Ended, there is still the hope of God's Christmas Magic because in the grand scheme of things Good Has conquered evil.
It's all coming together for me (somebody's been praying).
My life is like a HallMark movie but a much bigger one than I have been focusing on,we are still in the middle dilemma part of our story as long as we are here on this broken earth. The ending of the movie comes at our death and we Will Live Happily Ever After.  Olivia is healed and whole and in perfect peace in Heaven and I will see her again when my story here is through.
We win because of God's Christmas Magic,"Oh Holy Night" because of Jesus Christ, our Savior.
Please watch this video and follow the lyrics and feel the Christmas magic.
Merry Christmas to all of my friends and family, and many, many wishes for a much better Year in 2011.