Grandchildren; I'm not sure who I'm quoting but "grandchildren are the reason we put up with our teenagers" is probably true. I LOVE my grandchildren, this is Evangeline, 20months and Ezra, 4years. they are only 2 of my 12 but they are the ones who live closest to me. One day a week my daughter works so I get to have fun. Ezra is a whiz kid, he is so smart he is a challenge to keep busy, everyday we do some kind of "school" he know all his numbers, shapes, letters, colors, he is way beyond "what your preschooler should know" so yesterday we did math, counting all sorts of things, he's a whiz! I will have to work hard to figure out what to do next week.

Evangeline is the picture next to "little girl" in the

dictionary. She is adorable, never to be left out she

follows and copies everything her brother does. She is also very opinionated and has no problem shushing whoever is pestering her, it drives Ezra nuts. Get used to it Ezra, girls will be driving you nuts for the rest of your life.

They say writing is good therapy, I feel like I need therapy, I think I'll try writing first.

This last week has been crazy, Crystal my 30 year old daughter was told her baby daughter due in June has a heart defect. That's just crazy! Olivia Renee (after me) has a cardiologist, she is high risk, she will need surgery. I just can't wrap my head around this. Crystal has an appointment April 7th, April 12 and April 19th, just to get started. Life has turned upside down.

"Take one day at a time" "Stay positive" "Trust God" all good advise, my head understands but my heart has broken. The trouble with a broken heart is sleep, sleep has not been my friend this week, the parts of my mind that I can keep in check when I'm awake go wild when I sleep and I wake up worse than before so tonight I don't think I will even try.

Psalm 139:13-16 says "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise your because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."

I do believe the Bible to be the Word of God, I do believe it to be true. I know God has ordained Olivia's days and He sees her even now. Please God heal Olivia's heart.