But peace is never long staying in my world. You might say there is an explosion just waiting around every corner. My most recent explosion must remain private for now but I do think that if your heart is exploded too many times "all the kings horses and all the kings men can't put it back together again", and I think I am close to not being together.This last weekend we held the memorial for Debbie, it was nice, we were able to share some nice family memories and laughs. Like when Aunt BettyAnn had John Thomas take the canister of Debbie's ashes outside and put them next to mom because Mom and Debbie would always go out to smoke together! Ha...
I do miss being around my family, they really know how to laugh. I need to laugh more.
I don't 'feel' much like laughing lately.
I would like to do a study on that, you know, find out if there is some secret to feeling happy.
I know my 'joy' is in the Lord, and I understand that happiness comes and goes, I just wonder where mine has gone??
